Day to Day

I meant to get back on and write about the day to day experience of having IH, but I had a minor car accident. I am OK physically, but I feel horrible emotionally. Even though it was such a small incident, I can't help but wonder if it happened because I am sick. I can't help but wonder if I am slightly clumbsier because of the illness or the medication. I feel like I am OK, but this disease is so overwhelming, I can't help but wonder. I have asked my friends and family to keep an eye on me to see how well I am driving, and if there is even the slightest concern, I will stop driving all together. I feel very strongly about that. I have been driving all along, and I haven't felt like I was unsafe in any way, but what if there is something that is beyond my perception?

I have never questioned myself like I do now. I have never felt like there is something looming over me like I do since the diagnosis. Any other person might just be able to accept that they had a car accident, but I have to analyze every little event that happens in my life and hold it up to this disease to see if it is related. I can't seem to just roll with the punches like I used to. It's exhausting, and I was tired to begin with.